BECAUSE i...

It hurts at times, you know. You are there, and when im here, and im doin’ this, and writing that, and so… yes, im nothing great – i sit here, and do “nothing” so you seem to say, here and there, but i hear it everywhere! Call me names! Really, call me names! i truly like it! I smile the entire time! It makes me feel good, sometimes even great! And now, now i have to begin doin’ something else, because… im hurting, and no… my heart’s not broken, it’s with you, the entire time, but there’s a slice of pain prickin’ at it, and it’s getting sharper and sharper – deeper and deeper. So baby, my love, my life, my everything - the taking off the “my” right there. Lust? Letting you know, you… YOU… this… what i know, what i believe, what i feel, how i breathe – the why. Tell me what you want ‘cause ive stopped caring – what you say. You don’t make this change. Tryin’ to step all over me? Sure! Fuck me up! Screw me over! Break me apart, or at least try! Wait! Don’t waste your time. im not… But… enough with the hating of me right here and now. im just walking along, here, there, back, forth, and i still love you , whatever way – every way! i miss u! Maybe tomorrow, maybe after some hours, maybe less, or maybe too much - even more? im here! im writing my way around, taking every step necessary for you, and maybe sometime soon – maybe at least some proof, to you.